![I fear that, at the end of my life, my body was created for nothing more than to be molested, abused, and raped. And that everything I am on the inside – all of my dreams, desires, and passion – is nothing compared to the pleasure I’ve given men that chose to steal it from me. – Jennifer](https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/cee8ba54fcc9f770de9c95094bb54177643e984152ef6d8a3f17994d6e48daff/201013-140e.jpg)
![The thing I fear most is a relapse. I was addicted to meth and it destroyed my life. Now, I’m eight months clean and couldn't be happier. I know that if I relapse again, I will end up in prison or in a coffin. – Philip](https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/5456560c86b95cc5beef7a6f0c3e569be8f4ea303192898c05e8ec471f19c7c8/200828-064e-3.jpg)
![My deepest fear is that I am insignificant; that I do not matter. There is still a little girl within me that feels neglected each time that she is rejected or pushed to the side. After moving from foster home to foster home, you internalize the idea that you will never be loved as you are. When I am spiraling, I say to myself: "No one loves me, I do not matter, no one cares about me." Instead, I am trying to ask myself, "Who loves me? Who do I matter to? What makes me important?" – Veronica](https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/1ee6ce9f905748a0a491523619dd25765b5120c907af95085a9bdf410548199b/Bower_FearBlog_03.jpg)
![The military chewed me up and spit me out. I thought I couldn’t tell anyone about my sadness. I thought it made me weak. At least that’s what they told me. So I buried it all and with it I sank. What I fear most is that the thought of suicide will finally win one day. I don’t want to die and I’m scared I might lose this fight. – Tyler](https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/a839db39947ff7f6e5cad3b690db2aa690d5c17d4457bd655b8555be47966c4a/Bower_FearBlog_04.jpg)
![My biggest fear is being seen as unimportant or useless. There is a seemingly common misconception that brains, braun, and beauty cannot coexist. Because of this, I am forever doomed with having to prove my worth and capabilities - especially in a career field dominated by men. It isn’t that I am afraid of being seen as something I am not, it's a fear of not being seen for what I am. – Kim](https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/400661bcaa68824e9e83046fd385bcc5aff623f923929a6b04a8c47086982fb3/Bower_FearBlog_01.jpg)
![I am a 46 year-old man that has done almost 20 years in prison. I have beat a 20-year drug addiction. I am currently homeless, living in my truck with my wife who has cancer and our pup. I secretly fear never amounting to anything that is good. I try, I really do. I do good deeds when I can, yet I always feel like a piece of shit. – Chris](https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/6182c5d217aed63e440fa11c1c612731c674a119548da1a2fbd446e923b17a2d/Bower_FearBlog_05.jpg)
Our fears are held closely, and the experience of them is intensely personal and often isolating. This series examines how little we know of those around us and what they carry.
Our fears are held closely, and the experience of them is intensely personal and often isolating. This series examines how little we know of those around us and what they carry.
October 20, 2020